Exhausted

The thing is, ESP 4MC modules is equivalent to 8MC modules because they are always a combination of at least two modules.

In depth and broad, that’s what ESP is all about.

At the same time, if I want to take up CCA..
Hey, I’ve already reduce the number of CCA to only Hall Commitments!!

But it seems that it is not the CCA that cause me to feel exhausted.It is rather the burden that I have TOWARDS refining the current system.

There are too many things to do and so little time.

Maybe it’s because I’m not prepared to take up the position at all.
If I have know that I’m taking up this position, I would have started planning during the holidays.

Anyway, I have already agree to take up the position, and so far everything is running smoothly.
That’s because I’m doing most of the planning job myself.

I have to thank the Special Ops freshie, who has helped me thus far in fulfilling the Objective of EusoffWorks this year - "Cover every single event in Eusoff with Photo and Video, so that Eusoffians will have an archive of the cherished moments that we’ve all went through together."

Going down to lab.. Design Project!

Everything’s ok afterall

Phew… Just finish a one hour talk with the Media Secretary.
He seems to be a good guy wanting to do a good job for the hall.
Being a head is not easy at all…..
I still remember the thought that I have when I first came into EusoffHall.
My concept of main comm. and leadership position is totally wrong,
I always thought that people up there are just talk and no do,
maybe it’s because of my bad experiences with bad comm. that I’ve joined in the past.
But coming to Eusoff Hall made me believe that leading a committee is not an easy task at all, especially if you want to do a great job.
Oh well…. it’ll be another level up opportunity for joshuatj!
GREAT! Thank you God for the opportunity!

Oh ya, EusoffHall AGM just ended 2hours ago.
One thing that our outgoing president said caught me,
he say that people in this hall doesn’t have the endurance,
it seems that many promises are made but little is done last year.
He challenge us to keep the momentum and do things steadily,
try to ensure the momentum keep going~

True enough, the following year will be a successful year if only
the Hall Spirit is kept throughout the whole year.

I pray that as a head of a committee,
my momentum will not lose out,
but instead my comm. will be the most high on spirit comm.
I know that by my own might and my own power,
I can’t do it, but by the spirit of my beloved God,
nothing is impossible!!!

Future is bright ahead~!
March on!!!

Utter brokenness

currently listening to Pastor. Lawrence’s sermon on spiritual BROKENNESS.
the key to transformation,
the key to holiness.

Come to think of it,
18thFeb 2006 is where I first experience brokenness..

Realign my thoughts!

uncertainty~

It seems that I have lost the election.
Looks like i will be doing EW, AW and Band after all.
Anyway, whatever that has been done, is done.

I believe in the president and his direction.
I have faith in the hall too~!
Of course, my biggest source of motivation and energy is my heavenly father~!

Now I really feel the importance of HOLDING ON to HIS PROMISES!
His plan for me will always be the best for me!

Nothing can beat me down,
not even the fact that I have only 16MCs currently,
not even the fact that the guy who will be on top of me is someone whom I don’t really know,
not even the fact that I have 2 CA tutorials to hand up on Monday,
not even if the RAG video is screwed up,
not even if I have been sleeping less than 6hrs daily.

Whatever it is, this week is suppose to be restructured and reorganised since last weeks total failure!!
There are improvements, definitely.
But come on Joshua~
Work harder,
let’s start with finishing up the 2 tutorials!!

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me! Phi4:13
Not by Might, nor by power, but by the SPIRIT of GOD! Zech4:6

EusoffWorks

Just got to know how screw up the comm. is~
Whatever that we’ve built up for the past one year has been devastated by the interim committee in just three months.
It even hurt just by looking at the current state of the committee.

I’ve decided.
It’ll be EusoffWorks!
I’ll make sure it’s back on track in the coming one year.
I’ll lay out the tracks for the committee, with a complete SOP (Standards of Procedure) and strict discipline.

My goal is to make sure that the comm. will still be functional even if I am gone.
The comm.’s main objectives are

1. covering every single events that happens in Eusoff
2. publish it up on the internet for everybody

so that Eusoffians will always be in the know of what’s happening around us.
As for the pictures and videos, it serve as a media for all our memories.
By looking through the medias, Eusoffians will be able to see and feel ourselves in a different perspective.
Through this different perspective, Eusoffians will be able to reflect and ponder over what we have done.
Some may reanimate scenes in their mind, some may laugh over it, some may cry, some may cherish, some may..
Different people may react differently but ultimately Eusoffians will learn and grow through what we have experience together as a community of excellence and harmony.
The way to usher that to happen, EusoffWorks.

Priority Set

4 days into Yr2/Sem1,
the picture is getting clearer~!
My CCA commitments will be shifted more towards Eusoff Hall.

Let’s try listing down the CCAs that I’m already in now..

1. CAC Voices
2. NUSSU VPC
3. NUSPS
4. nuSTUDIO (not sure whether i’m still in)

still not confirmed but want to join
5. Eusoff Band
6. EusoffWorks (some restructuring of the comm. will happen)
7. AudioWorks ( maintenance? )
8. Eusoff Christian Fellowship (Mission & Evangelism?)

That makes 8 CCAs… a bit insane.
Therefore, I will divert my time mostly to 5,6,7,8..
more towards 6 & 8.

I was told to get out of my comfort zone and try something new.

Oh ya, I just remember~!
I was asked to help out in the Eusoff 50th Anniversary Magazine Publication.

But for now, it’s IBG.
I have to make sure the whole event is covered nicely,
because all in all,
it is our memory,
Eusoffian’s memories,
something which i’m part of.
In a bigger picture,
IBG coverage shall be the initiation of the
transformation of Eusoff Archive Comm..

Behold~!

After effects….

Too bad… I guess I have much to catch up over the weekend.
I must seriously sit down and meditate and re-think everything.
looking back, I think I screw my first week of school really badly.
This morning, it’s another 30minutes late for class.
That’s nothing compare to almost sleeping through the whole 2hrs of lecture.
Whenever I try to use my brain juice to try to understand what the professor is saying,immediately, my brain will shutdown and there goes another 15minutes.
That’s bad, considering the lecture pace of ESP modules.
Awwww… I still have a RAG victory video to produce and it is due Tuesday.
3 days~ I think I have to talk to Vijay and tell him it’s quite impossible to produce a video in such a short time.

Post-RAG syndrome is just bad for studies, moreover ESP~

EQ again

After some test and reading online, I’ve found out that my EQ is actually not that low.
I have a above average EQ (if those tests online are accurate)
Maybe it’s just the talking part that needs to be imporve.

transition state

Awwww….
The first day of school, totally screw up.
It seems like I have a invisible shield covering my brain and all the lectures and information just can’t penetrate the ultimate defense.
I suppose the shield was created subconsciously over the three months of RAG.
For the past three months, the only thing that my brain is thinking is RAG, FLOAT, RAGGERS, EAT, SLEEP.. RAG again.
Switching back to school time is just not so easy anymore.
I need some time to quiet myself and readjust all of my systems.
My body system was practically damaged by irregular hours of sleep and sometimes lack of sleep.
My cognitive ability was tweaked to solve problems like "how to cut 288 pieces of CDs in the fastest time possible" or "how to fix the solar panel unto the explorer so that when the explorer goes down the RAMP, it will not wobble"
My social skills were modified to suit the raggers, even my style of talking now is a integrated version of all raggers. (NONSENSE is the IN word now!)
My digestive system was readjust to suit the late night prata supper or the nutella meal.
That’s why when I step into my first lecture of Yr2 SEM I, I feel a bit out of place, mainly because i’m one hour late, but other than that, it just feel odd to feed "principles of continua" into my brain.

I will need a little bit more time to realign myself back to the ESP world and of course not forgetting EUSOFF HALL, the place where I grew the most.
I have to set goals, short term and long term(till end of sem), plan and schedule..
A lot to do..
oh ya, i have to tidy up my room as well, it’s just too messy now.
10pm CF welcome tea planning session.
Here comes my first hall activity in Yr2 SEM 1.

EQ

Aha… a friend of mine pointed that I am low on EQ in the way I talk.
I always thought that people who has bad temper are ppl with low EQ.
Is my temper bad?
I am not sure about other’s opinion,
but I think I have improved a lot, especially the recent 2 years.

But anyway, I will find out more about EQ and I will try to grasp the essence of it.
That’s what I called upgrading myself~!
To be a better person!

Oh ya, it’s worth mention that I wouldn’t know about the real fact of me being low in EQ if I didn’t join rag.
RAG is a place where everything on you is tested to the full!
Three months@!!